of things to come
3.09.2004
Spring has arrived in full force today, it seems. I felt it the minute I stepped into the sun this morning, and most perversely, I felt my spirits sink. I guess I'm not ready for spring. After all, this winter has been lovely and mild, whereas spring in Tucson is more like pre-summer — a portent of 100+ degree temperatures soon to come. I'm all for winter sticking around a while longer.
Another thing depressing me today is that I learned one of my favorite co-workers is leaving our company for a new job. I feel as though all of the people who make working fun have left or are leaving. That's not strictly true — there are still fun people around. But the attrition that we've experienced in the latter months is a depressing trend. It's stirring up my inherent restlessness — for the past ten years I've never held a job or lived in the same home for more than two years. I'm coming up on the two-year mark at MM now. And while I feel a desire for stability and familiarity, I also feel a simultaneous and contrary desire for change and freedom. But whether I stay or go, I want to always be driven by the desire for improvement - to not settle for “good enough” when I could achieve “better”.
